Hello all! Thank you so much for joining us. Today we have a very special guest, Matthew Carlson, who’s graciously agreed to answer a few questions here at the Tea House. Mattie, thank you for stopping by.
A lot has happened since you found the flyer. Can you tell us what was going through your mind when you first stepped foot inside All Cocks?
I was scared to death to tell you the truth, and I almost bailed about a dozen times. After spending a couple years living on the streets, trust wasn’t something I possessed at the time. So it was hard for me to give in and allow Victor and Andrew to take care of me in the beginning. And I won’t even go into the fiasco that was my first shoot. I had a full on meltdown, wasn’t pretty.
How have Victor and Andrew changed your life?
Drastically. I sometimes find myself wondering what my life would be like were it not for my two angels. They saved me, of that I have no doubt. But they also gave me opportunities to better myself. I have a college degree, a job and a family that I wouldn’t have if they hadn’t seen something in me that was worth fighting for.
What was it that drew you to Victor? To Andrew?
That’s a great question. On the outside the two of them seem like polar opposites. But they are so alike in many ways. Very loving, kind and generous; I think that was the start of the attraction for me, that they were both good to me expecting nothing in return. Victor can be a bear and I must say, knowing that my man could squash you like a bug if you tried to hurt me, well, it’s quite a turn on. Andy is the cool, calm and collected one of the three of us. He rarely loses his temper. I think it was his patience and understanding that really drew me to him, and those amazing blue eyes sealed the deal.
How challenging was it going from friends to lovers?
The first year we were together was very challenging. I was still very scarred and broken when I first moved in with Andy and Victor. While I was trying to work my way through the past and deal with all that, I was developing these feelings for both of them and certain they’d never be returned. So that in and of itself was painful for me. I know now that they were having some trouble dealing with their attraction to me, feeling like they were betraying each other more than anything. But once we all sat down and talked about it and made the decision, the three of us, to take it to the next level, we didn’t really care what anyone else thought about it.
What comes next for the three of you?
I’m not quite sure. I love my guys more than anything and don’t really care what we do as long as we do it together. Business wise we just continue to evolve and try to stay on top in an ever changing and challenging industry. In life, well, just because I chose to spend my life with these two men doesn’t mean I don’t want a family someday, as in children. We’ve talked about if briefly a few times, and while Andy is more agreeable than Victor is, I’m going to do everything I can to change his mind. It would be nice to hear the pitter patter of little feet running up and down the stairs here, instead of the clobbering hooves of our sometimes oversized models!
Victor Dimir moved to America with his traditional Romanian parents when he was just a child. His Romani parents taught him their traditions and how to be a shrewd business man, but it was the attention of a classmate at school that taught teenage Victor about his sexuality. When he came out to his parents he knew it would be difficult for them to understand, but he never expected them to disown him.
Andrew Jones grew up with a single mom and his grandmother teaching him about life, he had an absentee father at best. The only thing the man ever did for Andy that stuck was buy him a camera for his thirteenth birthday. When Andrew went off to college on a scholarship to study photo journalism, he wound up falling in love with his Romanian roommate.
They became inseparable and wound up starting their own business together: a gay porn website where people could go and watch romantic gay porn instead of the rough and tough, or wham bam thank you man crap that was flooding the internet at that time. After ten years together they were still perfectly happy, not realizing something was missing, until they met a broken young man that needed a family.
Matthew Carlson was homeless, jobless and broken. At sixteen he ran away from home after being brutally assaulted by several young men that he thought were his friends, and then being told he brought it on himself for being gay by his parents. Matthew has done a lot of things these last few years just to get by. When he finds the flyer for All Cocks, he decides to call and see where it leads. What has he got to lose?
Matthew has deep rooted scars that aren’t visible on the outside to most. But when he walks into All Cocks, both Victor and Andrew can see the darkness in his eyes; they also see him. Can three men that did not know they needed each other get past the stigma of society to find a place of happiness, together?
*Advisory warning: This story contains a scene of sexual assault.*
A military brat born and raised at Ft. Benning Georgia; Smith is an avid reader, reviewer and writer. She now calls Texas home from her small town on the outskirts of the DFW Metroplex. Most days you can find her curled up with her kindle and a good book alongside a glass of something aged and red or a steaming cup of coffee!
At 44 years young, she’s decided to enter the next phase of her life by adding the title of “author” to her list of accomplishments. Smith is a single mom of three disturbingly outspoken and decidedly different kids, one of which is Autistic. Besides her writing, Smith is passionate about Autism advocacy and LGBT rights.
Her series Opposites goes beyond the norm of society, exploring what society would be like were it the norm to be gay/lesbian. To be straight labels you the outkast. Her latest series, the All Cocks Stories, is set within the world of online gay porn.